It has officially been 36 hours now. I can't wait to finish this post so I can go eat. Yesterday was harder than today, but today was still difficult. My hunger never really died down, except in the morning. I weighed myself before and after the three-days fast to find I lost five pounds. Most people would be excited about this, but I'm not. I want to eat so badly and I feel like devouring a glutinous feast. However, from my other fasts, I know I will need to eat a little bit a time, or else I will feel uncomfortably bloated, even though I haven't eaten much, because my stomach has shrank. It has been very tough, but by God's strength I've made it all the way through.
As I mentioned earlier, my main purpose for fasting was to discover who I am in Christ and where he would lead me. Well, God has answered that prayer. I now have a more clear understanding of these things and will continue to grow in them, but I believe the basics I have long been searching for have been given me. Most of them were shown to me at a time that I really did not want to study, however, a verse came to mind that pushed me forward. In Franklin's book, fasting, of which I have read half, he says that assignments from God all have a birthplace, and fasting is a great way to discover these assignments. The verse that inspired me is found in Isaiah 66:9a: "Do I bring to the moment of birth and not give delivery?" says the Lord." I was in the pangs of childbirth, and the infant given birth was my divine purpose. Fasting is very hard during the process, but in the end, the reward is greater than the pain.
Tomorrow I return to the Daniel fast, and I'm trusting God to give me the strength to fast as I should.
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